10.10.2022 a little poison dailySunday, October 9, 202210:43 PM

10.10.2022 a little poison daily

Sunday, October 9, 2022

10:43 PM

Run 10 minutes and walk 10 minutes

 

Feed the dogs and tend to the dogs.

 

 

Water the garden

 

Wash the water tubes

 

 

Go grocery shopping

 

Cut and trim the undergrowths.

 

 

Wash Lucky

 

Walk happy and bambi

 

 

Do laundry

 

 

 

Be humble.

 

 

Cook.

 

potatoes

 

Eat a little poison everyday instead of getting an overdose.

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I need to move.

I need to work.

I need to be humble.

Mom and dad need to be loved

 

Work is the basis of doing love. Peterson

 

 

 

Go through the narrow keyhole

A strict discipline

And get to the other side of freedom

I will pitch in on the right notes and make the right choices and things will prevail. God's blessings are that people who surround me are love and they support me.

I have been arrogant and self satisfied but I will learn to fear the Lord Jesus and God and the Holy Spirit.

 

I will learn the right steps of living and be myself and learn to work and be productive.

 

I will exercise everyday.

I will do my fair share of work everyday without hesitating.

I will show efficiency in doing these works.

 

I shall learn to love as God wants me to.

I shall learn to love myself and others.

I shall assert myself in a proper and meaningful way.

 

I shall be truly repentant of my sins and draw nearer to Jesus.

 

Lord God,

 

Help me win this fight !

 

I pray in the name of Jesus, amen.

 

Jordan Peterson

Work on yourself rather than on a societal project.

You feel the rub against your own struggle more and it is the truer measure

But when it goes to a bigger scale without having managed yourself and your household

It would go bad.

 

Deal with things you can manage and is within your competence.

That is the way to not go out of control

And not lose your grip.

 

 

 

Think of why a task is worthwhile doing.

Instead of focusing that you have to do something

I am sitting here at Amity coffee shop.

I felt the need to get out and see some people.

Yesterday I was a freak and not fit to go out at all.

I felt I would need to forgo going to church and the bible study since it would repulse people.

 

To be trapped inside the house and unable to show myself.

 

I wonder what it means to be presentable and to be able to show myself to the public.

It would mean that I am fit to be seen.

Does not repulse anyone but can give pleasure with the sight of me and my conduct.

At least be acceptable to the sight.

I guess that means a sound mind at any rate and some ability to garner up oneself to be at least decent.

 

No one wants to be unpresentable.

No one wants to go out of one's mind to the point of losing all the perks of living.

 

I asked the Lord today about the good I had done and whether that didn't amount to anything.

If it wasn't something worthwhile and wouldn't He keep me sane and sound?

Maybe I meant to ask Him if He wanted destruction for me.

 

But I know God has plans for me.

God loves me.

He wants the best from me.

He wants love from me and

He wants me to glorify His Name.

 

I will gladly trust in His Name and magnify His Majesty.

 

I will Love God for His Grace in my life.

He always has equipped me a way out.

And he has made me grateful to His Name.

 

I love you, Lord Jesus.

I love you, Lord God.

I love you, Holy Spirit.

 

 

I saw for the first time the amazingness of the figure of Jesus and that He walked as an actual human being on this earth.

Jordan Peterson described him to have all the attributes of all that is best in each and every kingly figure on this earth.

The perfect embodiment of all the ideals as a human being!

And He actually walked the face of this earth!

Isn't it amazing!!!!!!!!!!

 

God who is and works outside in this world and not simply just inside me.

 

God the Magnificent Almighty !

 

 

I praise Thy Name !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The times when I can't seem to do anything.

That I mess up.

The times when just moving itself becomes impossible and I can't function.

Lord Jesus,

What is this phenomenon?

 

It is peace at this moment, Lord Jesus.

What do I need to remember at this moment, Lord Jesus?

The fact that I sinned against My Lord

In claiming that I was the Queen of the highest Kind.

That I made a mess with my life by living thus far this way.

That I hesitated to do everything with every bit of my life and way.

And I left undone many things that needed my efforts and striving.

 

Yet Lord, I am content.

I have experienced what I have and it is content that I feel, Lord Jesus.

I have work in front of me and things I must learn to do and must do.

I have a life before me, Lord Jesus.

I don't know what this life will lead to but you will provide a way for me.

I must seek it but I have no concept, Lord.

Help me work for things that I should work for and come across what I can do for my future life, Lord.

And May I seek and ask and find.

 

It may be a menial sort of life but it is a life and there is richness in knowing you and serving you, Lord Jesus.

 

 

I feel so thankful today.

After the turmoil and destruction I saw yesterday, I am grateful to be able to function and be alive.

I am grateful to the Lord.

 

Lord Jesus,

I thank you, Lord.

I have so many things to be grateful for.

That I have a mind that functions properly,

That I have a body that functions properly,

That I can have my own thoughts and control my own actions.

That I can serve you, Lord Jesus.

That I can receive your Grace and smile when you say you saved the world.

That I can humble myself before you, Lord Jesus,

That I can look to you for Grace and Mercy,

That I can love you, Lord Jesus.

I love you, Lord Jesus.

I pray in the name of Jesus, amen.