10.7.2022 action and uncertaintiesFriday, October 7, 20226:32 AM

10.7.2022 action and uncertainties

Friday, October 7, 2022

6:32 AM

You have to have your own space.

 

No matter how close you may be to someone, you ought to have a space to yourself so you have room to function in.

 

I should stop pulling in my parents more than I have to.

 

 

There can be many problems even in believing God.

 

It is a natural consequence as anything that I am experiencing now.

The consequences of not having attended to my own self needs to stand up as a separate entity.

 

Take responsibility.

A good sound advice.

 

 

Dear Lord Jesus,

There has been some improvement in my state of being, Lord.

I am seeking and talking and processing independence, Lord.

 

 

Lord God, Lord Jesus, Holy Spirit,

I thank you.

It is a responsibility that I will have to undertake.

I will work on myself, Lord.

I know that I had done some things right despite the wrongs I had done on this account.

So must many or all who had lived.

I must learn to be tactful and try to achieve the right outcomes.

I also must learn not to flatter myself but be sober.

 

There are things that dad and mom won't do and there are principles they abide by.

 

I must work on myself and others even while to achieve life생명 for my own self and what would be life for others too.

 

 

Dad would fight for his rightness to the end so appreciate his rightness or appease him so he won't be wrong unless it is something he has got to fix.

Let him live in his own world of having done everything perfect.

 

And simply don't say some things and don't tell them things they shouldn't know about.

That is going to make a hell for my life because I am living with them.

 

Be courageous.

 

 

Fight for my own space by not telling them everything.

FIGHT.

 

 

 

Mom.

A tricky person.

 

 

Don't want more out of the voices.

Cut it off.

Cut them off.

I have got to make my own living even it it means having to do with less.

God puts a stop to it then heed.

God gave me grace through them and that is all that I have needed.

 

 

 

 

 

 

11:21 AM

It is the constant actions and activities that denote life.

It is a continuing flow of life and is not static.

I must get used to it.

The constant activity and required and voluntary actions.

It is not going to end unless life is over.

That is what life consists of.

 

Also reading the scriptures, I realized that men cannot live without bread for Jesus cast the devil away by saying men cannot live on bread alone. That means that men cannot live without bread. That bread is necessary to live. I need to focus on this.

Jesus also continued to say that men live on EVERY word that comes from the mouth of God.

Which would mean everything might have the validity of the maker God behind it.

We should therefore, not disregard anything or anyone.

I should pay more attention to the bread and living a life and focus on doing the actions that make up living a life.

There is no mean person or a person who can be belittled in a sense for God has an infinite image of him made in that person as well.

God has an infinite element in all things.

 

I must learn to face things alone.

Without the kind guidance and protection of another

Not that society itself is without protection of any kind

But still within it,

I must learn to face things alone and figure them out and cope.

 

This is what it means to bear responsibility.

To be responsible for the initiation of a certain sequence of actions

And follow the results up with everything I got.

 

You Gin.

 

Love life. Leo.

 

 

 

 

This life or having life means the constant critiquing of actions and what I have done.

Likewise, there would be a constant critiquing of people around us and trying to find out their true motive in things.

Not just blind naïve faith in people around us.

I must be too lost in the comfort of mom and dad's sure confident assurances and protection that they have provided me with over the years.

 

 

1:27 PM

 

Maybe I shouldn't have asked Tita.

I was telling dad about all the above and we came to the question of how does competing and love stand with each other.

 

I think competition has love if you don't make the other a failure or hate. So you be responsible for making a person lose. Matt and Leo.

 

 

Dad was saying that competing is a must for if you don't then efficiency is lost and improvement in quality or progress becomes impossible.

We have yet to talk about love and competition and finding out dad's concept of love in terms of competition and in general.

 

 

I have yet to find out about love.

 

Tita and Dr. Kim both have their own interest in sight foremost and is not willing to do more. They don't have to because it is not mandated by the job but it says something about them.

 

Are we better than the system that made us?

 

It is something to think about.

 

You Gin.

 

 

Competition and fighting dad says doesn't mean you have to necessarily bring down the other but is meant to show you are better or more competent than the other.

God is Almighty and wins in every sense of the word and doesn't lose.

He is Love.

 

It means that you have a merit that overcomes another.

 

You Gin.

I realize that no world perfectly suits you. You have to strive in areas where things are not so to your taste.